30 novembre
Blake woke up at 2 am. He went back to sleep fine but I can't. My problem is I can't stop thinking of stuff - between Jolee, the holidays and our new business, I'm overwhemed with what this year has brought! I know that we're managing to get quite a bit done each day but there's always that list in my head. And back to the holidays, they're just not the same this year. Last year, we were celebrating Christmas, New Year's. Everyone knew I was pregnant, I was starting to show and then Jan 3rd came and we learned of Jolee's CDH and everything changed. I just feel like staying in this spot in time because it makes me feel closer to her. As time goes on, others speak less of her. It's painful and scary to move on but we're forced to. Someday, I'd like to retell JJ's story over on this site so that it might be more helpful to others - especially to expectant CDH families or those who would like help with CDH awareness and research. But for now, this blog is just what it is. And I enjoy reading other CDH blogs because they've helped me to not feel so alone. Anyways, a few tears and a computer screen make my eyes tired so I guess I'll try to get back to sleep before Blake is up.
17 novembre
Happy 6 month birthday JJ! Missing you and watching for rainbows.
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